Mighty to Save

It is a really good thing that God does not leave me to my own devices ... it has become clear to me in the last week exactly how wicked I am. It seems to me that there must be some kind of difference between sins that are committed unawares and those that are done with full knowledge of their menace. 

I have indulged in deliberate disobedience -- obviously this is something we all do fairly regularly, but for whatever reason it hit me as particularly evident this week. I knew exactly what I was doing ... God would speak gently against my actions, and (even more than just ignoring God) I said "I do what I want." I was working on my thesis this week, and exhorting my reader to abandon the do-whatever-you-want notion of freedom for the Biblical understanding that true freedom is experienced only within boundaries. I need to take a little of my own medicine.

I was reflecting with my best friend this week on all the times that we have felt the leading of the spirit and decided it wasn't worth heeding -- and we also remembered times that we said "yes" to the Lord and were richly blessed by that obedience.

It has become very evident that God says no to my self-indulgence for my own good.

The famous prayer, "God, save me from myself" has become my anthem for this time in my life.  Good thing God is mighty enough to do that!